~magicalpants

Rarrrgh!!!

I honestly could not have picked a better title for this journal. I feel so frustrated with my manipulations.. When I do one I feel like I am not challenging myself, I feel like a failure.


I only really ever spend two hours at the most on a manipulation, beyond that my patience wanes ..it's maddening!


I try to do things in installments but I can never just pick up where I left off. Five minutes into the picture I'm already wanting to have the damn thing finished and can't be bothered with it anymore.


If I have a finished one and try to think of new elements to add to it I just.. I really can't! It's a mental block!


Maybe I need to start all over again.


Maybe I need to go back to basics.


Maybe I need actual talent.


Ugh.